Tonight, May 30, 2008, around 8:30 pm (MST) as I was watching Chronicles of Narnia, The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe with the girls - the battle scene at the end when Aslan defeats the white witch - God in all His Glory, showed me a glimpse of His coming. As I looked out my window toward the Mountains, I saw a sunset like I have never seen before. It was as if I was seeing Jesus Christ with His army entering the atmosphere of the physical world. The clouds were as purple and fuchsia flames shooting across the sky. I was so taken with the view, all I could do was worship. Tears began to flow as I could almost see a heavenly army rising through the clouds. In the midst of all that, all I could see was God in all His Glory! It was so real, I was almost bracing myself for this to be the return of the Lord.
I have never experienced Him in such a way before. For the first time in my life, I was not fearing the coming of the Lord as I used to. Since my childhood, the thought of living for an eternity and the coming of the Lord scared me. I was so fearful of the physical life I’ve always known changing and coming to an end. It was never anything I ever spoke of until now, just an underlying fear. I never felt that it was right to feel that way, and was ashamed of that feeling, having been raised in the church.
But when I looked into the sky tonight, I felt such and awe and peace, of ultra worship. How could I fear such a wonderful experience? How could I ever doubt that God knew what He was doing? I found myself surrendering that part of me tonight, that part of me that desires to keep control.
Control of what? Control of the physical? A way to keep “what I know” from tumbling out of what I have believed to be in my control?
What is it in the physical that draws my attention so? Is it that I know I can touch and “understand” it? I have always “understood” the spiritual realm and have had God communicate with me in spectacular ways before, but this time it was as if he was settling something deep in my heart.
God was telling me to get ready! Ready my family, ready my home, ready my heart! The urgency was not full of fear this time, but full of conviction. Full of the desire for His coming!!!
FULL!
Just a side note: When the “daughters and sons of Eve” entered the realm of Narnia, they did not know they were walking into a glorious battle. One of which would fulfill prophecy. They were only children, sent away from their home, away from the dangers of war only to be thrown into leading a holy battle that they weren’t even sure they were ready for. But Aslan and the rest of Narnia knew what they themselves did not know, that they were leaders…kings and queens. Even in this world that they did not understand, I saw their fear and lack of understanding turn into confidence and triumph. This is what God does for us as we walk with Him!
